A good friend says I'm in a transition process. To what is the BIG question. The FROM bit I can see more or less clearly. 

It is interesting to confront the reality of one's own teachings. I am supposedly good at helping my clients in their change processes. But clearly blocked in my own. I'm frustrated as hell and have been so for a while. I try to ignore the fact that change is needed in my life and even wanted. The risks seem so big. The uncertainty almost unbearable.

We have a saying in Sweden that the shoemaker's son always has holes in his shoes. I guess the consultant needs a consultant. Or a firm kick in the butt.